Bismillah...Journey to Motherhood....Bismillah again just to make sure this is real...

Assalaamu'alaikum;

InshaAllah all is well witcha. :) It has been over a year and I am JUST getting back to this. Such a shame how neglectful I have been. Antyway, as you can see from the title, I am pregnant once again and guess when I'm due...October 19th 2011!!! That's approximately, 10 days, 240 hrs, 14,400 minutes, or better yet 86,400 seconds away!!! SubhaaaanAllah! Everyone keeps telling me that I am going to go in earlier than that. I don't even mind as long as my husband is by my side...I miss that man. Antyway, I am having contractions as I type this; nothing major just your normal mild ones that occur as the d-day approaches.

I must say, I am super anxious about this pregnancy, way more than I was about the first, mashaAllah. I guess the first was really a lesson for me to change my attitude toward things. Although, I am still not overly preparing for the baby's arrival BUT I have been looking up things to get when the time comes, preparing for the baby shower (after the birth, mainly because my family doesn't do them before the baby is here PLUS I don't know the sex. funny thing is, my husband tried to find out in May what the sex was and then last week my sister tried and STILL the baby said, "NOPE" LOL! Is this too much to have in ()? lol aah well it's my blog so I can do what I want! :P) and the Aqiqah, which is literally the religious ritual of the lamb/sheep/goat slaughtering to welcome the birth of the baby and then after we have a wallimah (reception), that entails lots of people, naming ceremony, GOOD FOOD, some gifts, etc. Most of yall are Muslim that will be reading this so I don't have to explain much. So basically, you can see that I'm excited, huh? Oh, and I am about to pack my hospital bag like on Monday inshaAllah.

I pray that I can have this baby "au naturale" especially because the last time I asked for drugs and regretted it. I don't like feeling like I am floating out of my bed, eww. Pray for me because I don't want to give in to the many temptations of being pain-free. Well, last time I felt pain but I was disoriented. MashaAllah, as I typed that I thought about my baby, Hamzah (that's my baby that passed). He makes me smile although we never met. InshaAllah my husband and I will meet him again in Jennah. I was just talking to my sister today about how I don't like to say, "I lost a baby." because it definitely wasn't a lost..well physically yes, but spiritually it has made me more conscious of my soul and that's indeed a gain. Also, he's in Jennah, can't ask for more (well, yeah I could, for me, my husband and family to be there with him :) Ameen!). Allah is most merciful.

Ok, I am just ranting...isn't that what blogs are for though? So imma continya then! I should be sleeping now though. I need all of the rest before this child comes. I think it's going to be a boy. Have any name suggestions? Well, I have a name, not telling yet though but I would like to see what you have and maybe I will use it for the next baby. Okay, I am going to lay it down because I could go on and on right now but I should save a little for later. InshaAllah I will try and stay consistent with this at least every few days. Maybe the next post I will be telling the sex of the baby :D.

Make du'a for me and mine and I will do the same for you and yours (if I know you, if not then I will just...iuno...pray that whoever sees this is blessed in this world and the next?) Ight den, I am ooouuuuttt! Oh, no editing for me so please forgive my grammar mistakes, typos, awlat! Ok, I'm out forreal.

Assalaamu'alaikum
~Something to ponder after you leave: "People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
What you spend years to build, someone could destroy overnight. Build anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow. Do good anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and Allaah (SWT). It never was between you and them anyway. ~ Mother Teresa"